a punch to the gut
hands up
a punch to the chin
hands down
lying lifeless, seconds pass
life
a punch to the gut
hands up
a punch to the chin
hands down
lying lifeless, seconds pass
the effects of your leaving hadn't taken it's hold yet.
sure, the upset still lingered. oh, and anger.
a few lonely nights here and there caressing a bottle.
but, nothing catastrophic, and certainly nothing a man with a five inch beard and a criminal past couldn't entertain.
a few months past though, then the trouble started.
and, the TROUBLE left me gutted.
the man's dog had passed over the early morning hours. it laid stiff as a surfboard in the small suburban backyard. a line of eager ants marched forward and around the lifeless fur ball. these ants, ever present in the final days.
how the man hated these ants. and hated the world for teasing him with life and death. the man stared at the dead body with a sunken, desperate anxiety. he looked up into the sky. he ran his hand through his hair, with a heavy, bothered motion. the hand weighed at least a ton.
defeated, the man went inside and sat on the dark green couch, the dog's favorite nap space. not a single thought passed through the man's head for another three hours. as he sat motionless, the sun slowly spread its energy across the living room, lighting the darkest room in the world, uninvited.
your esteem was a transient condition, always on edge. frailty, whims and indecision. shakeable, always. this can never serve you though, young girl.
your esteem is a transient condition. the death of you in future years. the death of you in the past, and in present, a fragment, held together by cheap duct tape, and maybe a shoe lace or two. maybe an instagram photo or two. careful young girl.
your esteem wants to own you indefinite. it has it's dark, skinny, vein ridden, twiggy hands all over your straight, sandy blond hair. it wants to devour your oxygen. pay to play, but it need not beg.
it persuades. it lulls. it has more of, everything you want. i wish i could help you. but, unfortunately, i have my own enemies. the demons sometimes dance in the dark, but if you look closely enough, they bask in the sun.
Low culture, sometimes deemed "trash culture" is where we are. Escapism, transfusion plus fetishizing is the state. Pop lives in this space mostly, but, it's always had the ability to move between cultural hierarchies. At present, it loves trash, the audience devours it, and the appetite grows because priorities have changed.
But, can we truly call anything pop anymore? Exceptions exist, but when history is perpetually the present, it's difficult to have a true pop culture. Pop relies on memories. It happens, and it was that thing, but then it goes away. It was silly, and we loved the novelty of it.
However, thing's don't really go away anymore, they get continued, rebooted, or dressed in a new shiny shell. And we don't have the options to forget. We only have options to filter. And boy oh boy, that net is polluted.
ps: i didn't capitalize anything. that is mad artsy.